Tomorrow is my last day at the Trust. I've been taking all my photos down and packing away my files.
Leaving the Trust means my internet access is going to be severely restricted, for a while at least. I don't have the internet at home and I won't be able to go online so much in work because they actively monitor internet access at my new job.
I've been meaning to get the internet for months - but I haven't. I plan to ring the company tonight, if I remember.
Reading blogs is like a full time job, which is ok now as my full time job's not like a full time job - but when I start my new job on April 3rd I don't think I'm going to have the same amount of time online to blog and read blogs. I'm still struggling to get through all my bloglines from last week when I was in Scotland - there were over 200 posts to read! So, sorry if I haven't left you a comment for a while - I still want to!
As for offline life, things are busy. Subtext is taking up a lot of time and energy. I'm going to Paris on Saturday. A mechanic just installed a new exhaust pipe on my car without telling me.
I've been giddy and hyper a lot, and I'm having difficulty keeping a level head. My moods are always mixed up though, so I'm never up for long. I spent a terrible night bawling my eyes out and shaking and cursing on Tuesday. Me trying to reassure him had somehow morped into a blazing row - afterwards neither of new why. I think I was a little drunk from hyperventilation afterwards too, my partner was trying to have a conversation with me and I went from talking about working on a Ambulance to describing an escape from crocodiles and alligators, in one sentence.
So, I'm going to be M.I.A. for a while. I'll try and get online when I can. Until then, have fun x
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
I'm leaving. End of.
I didn’t really dislike my boss until now. Sure, he’s a terrible manager, he says stupid things, he can’t pronounce words with a silent letter, he takes way too many fag breaks, and he huffs and puffs in his office all day long.
He’s turned into a complete moron though, since I handed in my resignation. Just this morning he has said, among other digs:
"I’m just borrowing your appeals folder, of course it’s not going to be your appeals folder ANYMORE!"
"I’ve just emailed you with some stuff to do, I’m going to make sure you have WORK TO DO in your last week."
Capitalisation denotes devil like evil speech.
He also keeps pronouncing that he WONT LET ME LEAVE! (again in his devil voice)
This is the same man who told a colleague that he wouldn’t bother with her yearly appraisal because she was due to go on maternity leave. Eurgh!
Well, his snarky comments are enough to ensure I do no work at all (even less than I’ve been doing for the past month).
FUCK YOU incompetent imbecile boss. You better get used to doing it yourself, because no one else will do it for you.
He’s turned into a complete moron though, since I handed in my resignation. Just this morning he has said, among other digs:
"I’m just borrowing your appeals folder, of course it’s not going to be your appeals folder ANYMORE!"
"I’ve just emailed you with some stuff to do, I’m going to make sure you have WORK TO DO in your last week."
Capitalisation denotes devil like evil speech.
He also keeps pronouncing that he WONT LET ME LEAVE! (again in his devil voice)
This is the same man who told a colleague that he wouldn’t bother with her yearly appraisal because she was due to go on maternity leave. Eurgh!
Well, his snarky comments are enough to ensure I do no work at all (even less than I’ve been doing for the past month).
FUCK YOU incompetent imbecile boss. You better get used to doing it yourself, because no one else will do it for you.
Monday, March 20, 2006
One night in drag
Radio 1, why oh why do I continue to listen to you? I am a fool.
This morning I heard about a new feature they’re running, One night with Laura, designed to find the perfect date for Laura the assistant on the drive time show and central protagonist of Laura’s Diary.
The name of the feature parodies both One night in Paris (Paris Hilton’s now infamous home made porno) and the song One night in heaven (which they’ve modified to create a jingle for the feature).
Radio 1 are holding ‘auditions’ at 5 locations across the UK to find eligible men to compete to spend one night with Laura (actually, it’s not the whole night, just the evening).
They’re coming to Nottingham on March 29th.
I’m thinking of going, as a drag king.
D’ya think I’ll get through?
This morning I heard about a new feature they’re running, One night with Laura, designed to find the perfect date for Laura the assistant on the drive time show and central protagonist of Laura’s Diary.
The name of the feature parodies both One night in Paris (Paris Hilton’s now infamous home made porno) and the song One night in heaven (which they’ve modified to create a jingle for the feature).
Radio 1 are holding ‘auditions’ at 5 locations across the UK to find eligible men to compete to spend one night with Laura (actually, it’s not the whole night, just the evening).
They’re coming to Nottingham on March 29th.
I’m thinking of going, as a drag king.
D’ya think I’ll get through?
Friday, March 10, 2006
Hiding in the Highlands
I have a confession to make. I am, apparently, terrible with money.This month I have been so good. I haven’t bought anything besides food, drink and the odd taxi fare. I thought that I was doing so well. I thought I might be able to afford to go away for the weekend before I start my new job, and that maybe I would be able to afford a new mp3 player too. I was going to go to Manchester at the start of April.
That is until I checked my bank balance. Two hundred pounds to my name. This is not good. It is two weeks until pay day.
Why? Where did all my money go? I HAVE BEEN GOOOOOOD! I don’t understand. I hyperventilated a bit when I found out. But not too dramatically because I was at work and people would’ve looked at me strangely.
You’re not meant to be constantly broke when you work full time.
So, due to the shock, I spent over £70 on impulse, catalogue shopping online. I am such a freakin moron.
I am taking a week in the Scottish Highlands to recover. Ta ta.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Action satisfaction
I would love to come up with a good post today, after all it’s International Women’s Day and Blog Against Sexism day. However I’m drawing a complete blank*
There are a fair few things I could be writing about – one is the double standards of a lot of feminist bloggers who think a woman should be granted permission to implant frozen embryos previously fertilised by her former partner and carry them to term against his will. Pro choice. It means he has the right to say no too. Yeah, sure, his ‘no’ may be taken a lot more seriously than hers, but undermining his right to say no is not going to strengthen any woman’s right to say no in the future.
Instead of this palarva, I am going to bring another plan into action. Subtext is going well my sweeties! So now that my domination of the publishing industry is well underway I am going to embark on the next phase of my plan for world domination, rock stardom.
I pledge to drag my keyboard out of the attic, dust off my bass guitar, upload my music software (when it arrives...) and become the next underground sensation. I will combine Chicks on Speed, Le Tigre, Kanye West (he is a total prick but he has good rhythms) and Subhumans whilst also channeling the limitless talents of Kathleen Hannah.
Yes, it's me against the male dominated music world. I'm fed up of waiting for him her and them to do it with me. Now is the time.
*just a little Grosse Point Blank reference for my fellow geeks.
There are a fair few things I could be writing about – one is the double standards of a lot of feminist bloggers who think a woman should be granted permission to implant frozen embryos previously fertilised by her former partner and carry them to term against his will. Pro choice. It means he has the right to say no too. Yeah, sure, his ‘no’ may be taken a lot more seriously than hers, but undermining his right to say no is not going to strengthen any woman’s right to say no in the future.
Instead of this palarva, I am going to bring another plan into action. Subtext is going well my sweeties! So now that my domination of the publishing industry is well underway I am going to embark on the next phase of my plan for world domination, rock stardom.
I pledge to drag my keyboard out of the attic, dust off my bass guitar, upload my music software (when it arrives...) and become the next underground sensation. I will combine Chicks on Speed, Le Tigre, Kanye West (he is a total prick but he has good rhythms) and Subhumans whilst also channeling the limitless talents of Kathleen Hannah.
Yes, it's me against the male dominated music world. I'm fed up of waiting for him her and them to do it with me. Now is the time.
*just a little Grosse Point Blank reference for my fellow geeks.
Self harmers to be given clean blades and shown how to cut more safely.
This is pretty divergent to the studies that have shown ER staff are less likely to give good care and sufficient time to patients admitted as a result of self harming (see one of Hippie's posts on this). However, divergent in this case is a good thing.
[via Alas, via BoingBoing]
Oh Happy Day!
I have just trashed a rageathon written this morning after a terrible commute into work, the morning after a terrible argument with 'him indoors'. I was feeling a lot of anger, self hatred and also pretty sorry for myself. Instead of the rageathon I'm pleased to point you to the following...
The 10th Carnival of Feminists is up at Indian Writing and features a post by yours truly [thanks very much to the mysterioso who nominated it :o)]!
Once you're read that put your thinking caps on for the 11th Carnival of Feminists which will be held over at Angry for a Reason - visit for more info.
The 10th Carnival of Feminists is up at Indian Writing and features a post by yours truly [thanks very much to the mysterioso who nominated it :o)]!
Once you're read that put your thinking caps on for the 11th Carnival of Feminists which will be held over at Angry for a Reason - visit for more info.
Happy International Women's Day everyone.
Monday, March 06, 2006
Tagged
Thanks Laurelin for the tag, here's my response. Please bear in mind it is Monday morning and I left my brain at home today.
Black and White or Colour; how do you prefer your movies?
I like my movies in colour, but I like stills in black and white…
What is the one single subject that bores you to near-death?
Erm, football. Talking about football. Lucky I don’t know anyone who’s actually going to talk to me about it.
MP3s, CDs, Tapes or Records: what is your favourite medium for prerecorded music?
I like records. If you play them too fast or too slow and it’s like having two records for the price of one and you can play them backwards. They demand your attention because you have to turn them over and if they skip you have to jump out of seat like lightning to right them. Playing them well is like a precise exercise in electronic engineering: speakers, amplifiers, careful placing of the needle. It’s a listening experience.
MP3s are good for portability and skipping through tracks though. It’s difficult to records on the train.
You are handed one first class trip plane ticket to anywhere in the world and ten million dollars cash. All of this is yours provided that you leave and not tell anyone where you are going … Ever. This includes family, friends, everyone. Would you take the money and ticket and run?
No, I’d try and figure out a way to have both. I would plan an elaborate ruse to trick the person offering me the money. To karmically rebalance afterwards I would give a heap of dosh to charity.
Money just aint worth having if you don’t have anyone to share it with.
Seriously, what do you consider the world’s most pressing issue now?
Climate change/destruction of our environment – no matter what else we do, achieve or whatever there’s not much point if we’re going to kill off the planet. We’ll have to move to the moon. It’s cold and dry there. That would suck.
How would you rectify the world’s most pressing issue?
I would make everyone convert their cars to run on sugar, or hemp, or vegetable oil, or natural gas. I would lock up the CoE of MacDonalds and submit them to tickle torture. I would force power companies to shut down their power stations or ‘go green’ and build hydroelectric tidal energy generators and wind farms out at sea. I would put a limit on car use to make people choose when they need to use them rather than just nipping round the corner in them when it’s cold.
It’s unfair to expect me to come up with an integrated and realistic plan for the prevention of climate change off the top of my head on a Monday morning when I feel like shite. That’s just mean.
You are given the chance to go back and change one thing in your life; what would that be?
I wouldn’t change anything. I try not to carry regrets around with me.
You are given the chance to go back and change one event in world history, what would that be?
I’m not sure if I would change anything in broader history either. I thought at first I would kill off Hitler, but someone else would’ve probably gone and done the same thing anyway. There were and are plenty of people who’d be capable.
A night at the opera, or a night at the Grand Ole’ Opry – Which do you choose?
The Grand Ole’ Opry sounds like more fun than the opera.
What is the one great unsolved crime of all time you’d like to solve?
Who killed Roger Rabbit. Oh wait, didn’t someone solve that one already. Yeah, I think they made a movie about it…
One famous author can come to dinner with you. Who would that be, and what would you serve for the meal?
George Orwell. I would serve him couscous and halloumi cheese with grilled vegetables, because it’s yum.
You discover that John Lennon was right, that there is no hell below us, and above us there is only sky — what’s the first immoral thing you might do to celebrate this fact?
I don’t believe in God, heaven or hell, and I don’t act like a murderous jerk-off. Just because there’s no one ‘watching you’ doesn’t mean people will run wild in the streets and go all LOTF and end up eating each other. We shouldn’t need a ‘overseer’ to keep us in line.
Black and White or Colour; how do you prefer your movies?
I like my movies in colour, but I like stills in black and white…
What is the one single subject that bores you to near-death?
Erm, football. Talking about football. Lucky I don’t know anyone who’s actually going to talk to me about it.
MP3s, CDs, Tapes or Records: what is your favourite medium for prerecorded music?
I like records. If you play them too fast or too slow and it’s like having two records for the price of one and you can play them backwards. They demand your attention because you have to turn them over and if they skip you have to jump out of seat like lightning to right them. Playing them well is like a precise exercise in electronic engineering: speakers, amplifiers, careful placing of the needle. It’s a listening experience.
MP3s are good for portability and skipping through tracks though. It’s difficult to records on the train.
You are handed one first class trip plane ticket to anywhere in the world and ten million dollars cash. All of this is yours provided that you leave and not tell anyone where you are going … Ever. This includes family, friends, everyone. Would you take the money and ticket and run?
No, I’d try and figure out a way to have both. I would plan an elaborate ruse to trick the person offering me the money. To karmically rebalance afterwards I would give a heap of dosh to charity.
Money just aint worth having if you don’t have anyone to share it with.
Seriously, what do you consider the world’s most pressing issue now?
Climate change/destruction of our environment – no matter what else we do, achieve or whatever there’s not much point if we’re going to kill off the planet. We’ll have to move to the moon. It’s cold and dry there. That would suck.
How would you rectify the world’s most pressing issue?
I would make everyone convert their cars to run on sugar, or hemp, or vegetable oil, or natural gas. I would lock up the CoE of MacDonalds and submit them to tickle torture. I would force power companies to shut down their power stations or ‘go green’ and build hydroelectric tidal energy generators and wind farms out at sea. I would put a limit on car use to make people choose when they need to use them rather than just nipping round the corner in them when it’s cold.
It’s unfair to expect me to come up with an integrated and realistic plan for the prevention of climate change off the top of my head on a Monday morning when I feel like shite. That’s just mean.
You are given the chance to go back and change one thing in your life; what would that be?
I wouldn’t change anything. I try not to carry regrets around with me.
You are given the chance to go back and change one event in world history, what would that be?
I’m not sure if I would change anything in broader history either. I thought at first I would kill off Hitler, but someone else would’ve probably gone and done the same thing anyway. There were and are plenty of people who’d be capable.
A night at the opera, or a night at the Grand Ole’ Opry – Which do you choose?
The Grand Ole’ Opry sounds like more fun than the opera.
What is the one great unsolved crime of all time you’d like to solve?
Who killed Roger Rabbit. Oh wait, didn’t someone solve that one already. Yeah, I think they made a movie about it…
One famous author can come to dinner with you. Who would that be, and what would you serve for the meal?
George Orwell. I would serve him couscous and halloumi cheese with grilled vegetables, because it’s yum.
You discover that John Lennon was right, that there is no hell below us, and above us there is only sky — what’s the first immoral thing you might do to celebrate this fact?
I don’t believe in God, heaven or hell, and I don’t act like a murderous jerk-off. Just because there’s no one ‘watching you’ doesn’t mean people will run wild in the streets and go all LOTF and end up eating each other. We shouldn’t need a ‘overseer’ to keep us in line.
Friday, March 03, 2006
Add your name to the petition against human trafficking during the 2006 World Cup
Prostitution is legal in Germany, the host country of the 2006 football World Cup.
Part of the preparations being made for the influx of thousands of men coming to the country to watch a match, the German authorities are setting up roadside booths (among other additional areas) in which prostitues can service potentially thousands of extra clients.
This presents a great 'business' opportunity for human traffickers, because there is likely to be much greater demand than the prostitues of Germany can fulfill.
80,000 people are trafficed across borders every year, 90% of which are women and girls. It is estimated thousands of these women and girls will be trafficed into Germany before and during the world cup to be sold into prostitution.
The Party of European Socialists are petitioning President Barroso, President of the European Commission, to take action to stop this crime. The petition will be presented on March 8th, International Womens Day.
Click here to add your name to the thousands of others that want to put a stop to this crime and abuse of women's rights.
Part of the preparations being made for the influx of thousands of men coming to the country to watch a match, the German authorities are setting up roadside booths (among other additional areas) in which prostitues can service potentially thousands of extra clients.
This presents a great 'business' opportunity for human traffickers, because there is likely to be much greater demand than the prostitues of Germany can fulfill.
80,000 people are trafficed across borders every year, 90% of which are women and girls. It is estimated thousands of these women and girls will be trafficed into Germany before and during the world cup to be sold into prostitution.
The Party of European Socialists are petitioning President Barroso, President of the European Commission, to take action to stop this crime. The petition will be presented on March 8th, International Womens Day.
Click here to add your name to the thousands of others that want to put a stop to this crime and abuse of women's rights.
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